I'm still working on writing up our birth story so here are a few pictures of Piper to tide you over :)
Half smileThursday, July 30, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
Cool as a Cucumber...Until Now
So this whole second baby thing has been fine with me all along. Until today. It just really hit me tonight that we will be a family of four in a matter of days. It's just a weird concept to me. I'm sure that when this baby comes it will feel as though she has been a part of our family forever but until then I'm having a hard time wrapping my head around the whole idea.
And I'm not just talking like, "Wow - that's kind of weird but whatever" kind of feeling.
I'm talking like, "What in the heck am I going to do? How will I function? How will Ellie feel? What if I can't take care of all of us? What have I gotten myself into?" kind of feelings.
How do you deal with those feelings?
Tonight as we were putting Ellie to bed and snuggling her I had this overwhelmingly intense urge to hold her and never ever let her go. I mean never. I just wanted to hold her and tell her I love her and tell her that everything would be okay and to not be sad that mommy can't give her as much attention as she once did and that mommy loves her more than she will ever know.
Once she was asleep I crawled back in bed with her and snuggled her again and just cried on her pillow because I can't imagine how she must be feeling right now having just moved to a different house, having a different bedroom and a different bed, new daily routines, new rules, a new ward and new nursery leaders, having daddy gone more because he has a 30 minute commute to work, and having a very pregnant mommy who isn't as patient as she should be. It has got to be so hard on her and I didn't really consider all of that until tonight and I just cried and cried because I feel so bad for her and it's about to get worse for her with a new baby sister. I know she will be so excited about her but at the same time it will be yet another huge change for her that is beyond her control.
Does anyone have any advice for how to help Rob and I help her deal with all these huge changes going on? Or any advice for me for going from one kid to two? Because I'm freaking out a little here.
I'm talking like, "What in the heck am I going to do? How will I function? How will Ellie feel? What if I can't take care of all of us? What have I gotten myself into?" kind of feelings.
How do you deal with those feelings?
Tonight as we were putting Ellie to bed and snuggling her I had this overwhelmingly intense urge to hold her and never ever let her go. I mean never. I just wanted to hold her and tell her I love her and tell her that everything would be okay and to not be sad that mommy can't give her as much attention as she once did and that mommy loves her more than she will ever know.
Once she was asleep I crawled back in bed with her and snuggled her again and just cried on her pillow because I can't imagine how she must be feeling right now having just moved to a different house, having a different bedroom and a different bed, new daily routines, new rules, a new ward and new nursery leaders, having daddy gone more because he has a 30 minute commute to work, and having a very pregnant mommy who isn't as patient as she should be. It has got to be so hard on her and I didn't really consider all of that until tonight and I just cried and cried because I feel so bad for her and it's about to get worse for her with a new baby sister. I know she will be so excited about her but at the same time it will be yet another huge change for her that is beyond her control.
Does anyone have any advice for how to help Rob and I help her deal with all these huge changes going on? Or any advice for me for going from one kid to two? Because I'm freaking out a little here.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Full of Nothing
So it seems as though I've temporarily run out of things to blog about even though we just went through selling our first house, moving, and waiting patiently on a baby who, according to my doctor, will be making her debut any day now. I just haven't felt like writing about any of it.
I think I'm in denial about everything that has happened in the last month.
There's no way we just sold our cute little house!
There's no way we moved into Rob's parents' basement!
There's no way we're days away from having a baby!
It would probably be in my best interest to face reality don't you think? :)
I think I'm in denial about everything that has happened in the last month.
There's no way we just sold our cute little house!
There's no way we moved into Rob's parents' basement!
There's no way we're days away from having a baby!
It would probably be in my best interest to face reality don't you think? :)
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